Behind my shadow, there's always something else: March 2008
3/29/08
「 What's behind my shadow. 3/29/2008 10:51:00 AM 」

ok. so i got first for discus? and second for shot putt. jessica say they shout 'joey wo men ai ni' or smth liddat. nvr hear leh. paiseh wor. but i love you guys too. dammit man. sunburn again! owwie~ so after that we had lunch at junction 8. ajisen! lol. daphne ate three bowls! gosh. tracy and anthr girl couldnt finish. daphne ate all! =X

and i almost killed the ngee ann tchr. cos the discus slipped off my hand, and it flew towards the tchr. luckily she was looking and dodged it. if not i cannot imagine wad will happen. ><

so much...

nth to say alrdy. oni that im very tired. *yawn*

lol. byebye. love you all. <33 thanks for the support.



3/21/08
「 What's behind my shadow. 3/21/2008 10:51:00 PM 」

many things to type but damn lazy... and i forgot most of the events anyway.

except on thurs we had pe for first period. then we stripped evryone, pulling their pants down. first one to fall victim was rongda. laura ginny eelin celestine jessica cheryl all got stripped. they stripped me too, but anyway we call ourselves horny strippers if i nvr rmb wrongly.

then then mr sequiera asked all overweight ppl to see him. and then ui reaalised im not overweight. lol. that shall be all. hurhur. no no. still have.

this morning went to fly the plane again. hurhur. sunday going again. i have my beaver! woooo~! then then there was this new guy who came, hes an angmoh. they all don lyk him cos his plane very noisy, very big. an he full throttle all the way, noisy lyk hell.

and they said he once crashed is plane into the hdb blocks nearby. and his plane was lyk $1000+ heartache man. hurhur. then we continue blah blah. then i went home, play psp a while and went to shop. -.-

then weihao smsed. its no wonder he nvr sms the past few days. cos no money. -.- then he went lyk, yay phone top up le~ play cabal.

"no wonder u nvr sms the past few days. cabal no fun one, run arnd and kill monsters and i outside now"

" LOLS patoh wahaha!"

"patoh wif u la. haha =X im wif my family la aiyo."

still got a lot, lazy type. lol. and i cant post jessica the audi ss, cos i using bro com. anthr day when i get to touch my com i post. ^^ bye for now. off to play some games. tata. love u all. <33



3/16/08
「 What's behind my shadow. 3/16/2008 03:13:00 PM 」

woo. i finished most of my work on sat! filed my math file, blah blah. hurhur. and i came back from flying the plane at about 11am. HAHA. goddamn fun can! and they said i was good for a beginner. hurhur.

it crashed thrice though, once i crash de. >< twice is uncle daniel, cos of the strong wind... sheesh. but it was quite a nice weather after all. the last crash almost spoilt the plane completely. the bone sorta got bent, and the thing holding the motor came loose. but thanks to... anthr uncle, he fixed it! weee. thanks a lot. :)

then i sorta broke three propellors... not all me lah. i broke one. during the crash. hurhur. >< then... daddy came. there was anthr uncle his plane fly fly fly then the plane pratically broke into half, but it didn't seperate, luckily. then smth dropped from his plane, either his motor or battery. or smth liddat.

it costs $100+, they say. wow. heartache eh? =X so he searched for like one hour plus... i go home he still didnt manage to find it. my plane is like, dam slow la. but im getting anthr one? e-starter. hurhur. $30+ >< and i flew uncle ah leng's plane that has a gyro, giro, dunno how to spell. it costs $70 for that giro/gyro thing.

dam easy cos the gyro/giro thing makes the plane level so it wont droop down even if u don't control it. like auto-pilot liddat! so cool! i wanted to ask mummy to buy that giro/gyro thing, but i decided not to, since i'm still a beginner, incase i crash my plane. >< hurhur.

weeeeeeeee. and thx to geoffery who told me wad to do for journal. =) i lost that list lasy yr and this year. gosh. how am i going to do my journal ever again. T_T nvm... photocopy? no idea. aiya. nth happened these few days, except many hentai smses from wei hao. lol. and he's crazy over audi?

and we talk until kidnap eelin and qianhui? then dragged laura, ginny, wait ting, jessica, celestine in too. and i suggested we dont kidnap jiaqi cos she's scary. and strong. and i told him to get a van. he say lv not enuff. -.- he means age. lol. then i ask him hijack, he say lv too low cannot drive.

and then i said then ask all of them to walk to our hiding place and wait for police catch. he say wad song called catch in audi 120bpm. then he say police is npc. then we mus chain more so we wont get caught. -.-

so i didnt reply. i didnt have anything to say. then he say i having tea session wif mas selamat. wad has kidnapping gotta do wif mas selamat? -.-

and then he say many ppl very busybody. ppl kiss girl on beach oso wan take photo. i wonder why he got so agitated, so i asked if the guy was him. he said no. -.- then he care so much for wad. >< hurhur.

thats all for now. tata. <33



3/13/08
「 What's behind my shadow. 3/13/2008 10:30:00 AM 」

The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was arrogant, acting like the dictator of your life.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
"http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?


lol. marriage is pessimistic? ROFL. maybe...

You Are 40% Left Brained, 60% Right Brained
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
http://www.blogthings.com/areyourightorleftbrainedquiz/">Are You Right or Left Brained?


creative writing? LOL. weird quiz



This will be a long long post since i how many days nvr touch the com.

mmm. Tuesday we went out. rongda, Nicholas, eelin, me and Jessica watched the eye, which was lyk 12pm. then they ask why so little ppl. -.- who the hell watches a horror film in the afternoon on a nice weekday? ans: crazy ppl who were int he cinema at that time. which includes the five of us. HAHA.

then... oh ya. i got scared once. cos i was toking to eelin and then i turned arnd to see the silhouette approaching so fast. phew. rlly got scared man. Bleahs. okay. then eelin held on to Nicholas' hand. hurhur eelin. then she hold my hand and lyk placed it at a gross place. which wasn't but felt gross anyway. T.T

mmm. then after the movie eelin wan go toilet huh. then we passed by the poster of the wad ah... ah ah. step up 2. she say the guy shuai. i say he sexy. >< okay lah. sexy jiu sexy lorh, make such a big fuss. i think i say he sexy cos he wearing a singlet, and it seemed so tight in that position of his? or not. hell.

RAWR. then we went to macs. then evryone went there. then jessica said smth abt audi wad noob. so the conversation went lyk,

eelin: i don scold vulgarities, except in front of joey.

me: and behind all of you guys.

rongda: -.-

chee. crap. im doing chi now? lyk 8.30 in the morn?! cannot think properly. mm. then watched the leap yrs. okay lah. not very nice. kimberly and i thought it was boring? but i felt that evrything in the movie is lyk, so... predictable? mm. yea. predictable. far too predictable.

you could tell wad was gonna happen next.

then we went home. went home wif celestine at first but realised my jacket was wif jessica. then called her. arranged to get it back. then opened my bag for a drink. then realised eelin wallet wif me. my phone rang. it was her. lol. then they all came.

then eelin and qian wanna go home too. hurhur. then eelin got off at tanah merah, and qian asked me how they were going to cross over to the other platform if there is a track in the middle. go down or the train come cross over lorh.

and she can tell me she thought there is a bridge but the train cannot come in if theres a bridge! HAHA. bimbo. bimbo. bimbo. =X thennnnnn. tok tok tok. and qian says im mean sometimes and so nice sometimes. itold her i was changing for the better alrdy. i used to be all the way mean. she agrees. T_T

sheesh. then wednesday bahs. i went to malaysia? and woke up at 6am in the morning. but went back to sleep. got up at 6.15am... sniff sniff*** ROFL. then, bathe blah blah. and realised i take only 10mins to bathe. hurhur. so fast.

then we took the boat or smth. the scene was nice lahs. then my ah ma fren. carry baby to go along. -.- baby go malaysia for wad. zzz. okays, then i was watching the view, so peaceful. i was starting to enjoy the moment of peace when the baby come and hit me in the arm?! -.- wads her prob. let me peaceful a while oso cannot. pout*

then i sorta chased her away and continue. hurhur. >< i took some pics. hurhur.

eh? wait wait. sms. !!! chee. wei hao ask me wake up le don be lazy. i woke up at 7.20am!!! say me lazy. wait wait. reply. ok ok. wait huh, get the pics out of my hp. very nice leh the pics!

eeyer. press on the add image no use one huh. impatient alrdy. spam the button!

zzz. nvm. ltr then post the pics. then at malaysia i bought chewing gum. oni bought one bottle though. then bought a gun? the gunpowder kind. so noisy one. and the colour is green. bleahs. where got gunb green one. but nvm. can work can lerh. noisy lehs the gun. but who cares?

and then we went back after a meal. hurhur. so stoopid right. go there eat and but some things. oh ya oh ya. then they went someone house. to buy dunno wad. then ah. got swing, the kind hand made one. rofl. jus tie ropes and a wooden board to it.

quite fun lahs. considering it was so boring there. then someone, not me, swing swing swing and the board broke! HAHA. and she flew forward and landed on the floor. i couldnt stop laughing. so malu can. wakakakakakaka. evryone laughed lyk hell. you all should have seen it. so funny!

hurhur. then went home huh. then went amkhub. nth for me to shop. then after that went to uncle daniel's house to get my plane? nice lehs! red one. but a bit heavy, it flies real sloooowww. but nvm lah. he gimme free leh! thanks a lot leh uncle daniel. im going this sun. to fly it! mus practise more on the simulator. hurhur.

mmph. i go do my chi and other hw lerh. byebye. <33



3/9/08
「 What's behind my shadow. 3/09/2008 11:27:00 AM 」

And you know, I think I'm too matured. I'm seriously thinking too much into evrything. Like, for example ah. Qian, eelin, and even laura. I'm thinking too much! Lyk, wth. It's troubling me by thinking so much into everything. crap it. someone help me stop thinking. this way i can never be able to concentrate on other things.

it's lyk, i can even feel it when someone is sad, but i cant do anything, lest someone sayd im busybody. T_T wad to do... lyk when eelin cry, i feel it. qian cry, i feel it too. even when one doesnt cry, i know when the person wants to cry, and at the exact time, she cries.

its lyk, im getting too observant! when their eyes well up, i wanna go forward and give a pat. but that will be lyk, so rdm. and lyk, when i know that someone is sensitive to something, and when it jus lyk appears to that person, i will keep observing the person's eyes. empathy is what they call that? i guess so.

im putting myself in everyone's shoes...

btw btw. 我不是你的出气桶。在你眼里,我到底是什么。废物?道具?用完了就丢弃在一旁?直到需要的时候,在找出来使用吗?请放一点尊重和自尊给我。

we are drifting further and further apart. or am i thinking too much again? no, i dont think so. recently when i smile, i dont think its a genuine smile. it has always been a fake.

For so many years, 14 years, it feels as if there has always been a mask on my face, i have never shown anyone what i actually am. i always smile. but that is not the case. its not what i feel at all.

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Bleahs. CTs finally over! didn't bring my lappy to ah ma house! nvm then -.- then um... oh ya oh ya. jus came back from plane flying! WEE~! although i didn't fly it. -.- hehe. but i saw many planes. there were lyk, 5ppl? then each person brought lyk 3 to 4 planes. means lyk 20+ planes!

lyk plane exhibition liddat, dam fun can! HAHA. they were flying the planes at lyk, a very very big piece of empty grassland, behind the polyclinic there. daddy and i rode our bike there. i didn't know he adjusted the height of the seat. so high can! lyk. my leg barely touches the ground? but i'm sort of used to it since i always can't touch the ground whe i use it. ><

Then i went for one round while they were flying the plane. its lyk quite a big round, i'd say. abt 3km? and i finished one round in lyk 2 and a half min? WEEE~! pro pro *applause* >< then it started to rain. :,( then evrybody packed up. Shucks. no more. but uncle daniel promised to bring his beginner plane for me next week! YAY.

And all the uncles there so kind and friendly. HAHA and there was this guy abt 20? came wif his dad. he flew the plane damn nice. red and black one. the model i dunno lah, but then look lyk fighter jet kind, ya know? NICE~! then it crashed. :( the head broke off. =O it must have costed quite a lot since it flew so fast, so high. WOW~! ^^

but it broke. :( i feel sad for him. accidents do happen, ya?

so. i was playing wif the simulator jus a while ago, and i am perfecting it! and i meddled wif the copter. so cool! quite easy lah. but damn difficut to land. *pouts* but i am so going to master the plane first. next sunday! i can't wait!

oh ya. and i asked mummy if i could go for the MMM on tues? she said, u stay at home wif ur sis. aww shucks. i can't go! i wanna go! hmph. and kor kor went out wif his fren watch 10,000bc. he say not nice. eh eh. tues you all don watch 10,000 bc arh. no nice. then... he say PS ILY oso not nice, who cares since im not going. -.-

that should be all then. sayonara~!



3/5/08
「 What's behind my shadow. 3/05/2008 07:03:00 PM 」

eelin wants me to post my answers for the test, so i shall.

Take just a couple of minutes to take this test & see what happens!If you are honest this tells the truth -- it's pretty good.Write your answers on a piece of paper, NO cheating!! The answers are atthe bottom...

1. Which is your favorite color: red, black, blue, green, or yellow?
2. Your first initial?
3. Your month of birth?
4. Which color do you like more, black or white?
5 . Name of a person of the same sex as yours.
6. Your favorite number?
7. Do you like California or Florida more?
8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
9. Write down a wish (a realistic! one)

When you're done, scroll down. Don't cheat



















































Answers:
1. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - you are conservative and aggressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back
Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.
Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

2. If your initial is:
A-K - You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.
L-R - You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your lovelife is soon to blossom.
S-Z - You like to help others and your future love life looksvery good.

3. If you were born in:

JAN - MAR: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
APR - JUN: You will have a strong love relationship that will last forever.(May 26th! dont forget my birthday! =X)
JUL - SEP: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.
OCT - DEC: Your love life will be great, you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose...

Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White: You have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person should be your best friend. (eelin, already one of my best friends. HA.)

6. This is how many close friends you will have in your lifetime. (6, so many wor... and i alrdy have an idea of who they are!)

7. If you chose:

California : You like adventure. (yea, true.)
Florida : You are a laid back person.

8. If you chose:

Lake : You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people. (wads spontaneous?)

9. This wish will come true if you send this to 1 person in one hour. (i wished for good results lorh, and hope my efforts will pay off.)
Send it to ten people, and it will come true before your next Birthday



3/2/08
「 What's behind my shadow. 3/02/2008 02:33:00 PM 」

i couldnt sleep well at all lah. went for dinner wif my family. taxi so ex wor!!! lyk 15min ride is lyk $9.75... so ex! then went home after dinner. immediately slept w/o changing. >< too tired alrdy lahs. then oso cannot slp well. cos of the goddamn sunburn. hurts lyk hell. all positions oso cannot. T_T will press on the burn. dammit. it wasnt very hot, but we all got sunburn, including ms chia. who jus took the measurements.

hmm. then oh yah. went hone with celest after the make up lesson on sat, and saw yangjun on the train, but he didnt see us. LOL. so i called him, and once he answered, i hung up. three times straight, we were laughing lyk hell. he didnt notice us, until the third time i guess, then he rejected the call lerh. hehe.

then we went over to tok to him. then chow chow got off. then he was going to pasir ris too, so i went wif him, realised he can take 88 too!! yay. so i got him to take 88 wif me. kind little yangjun! yay him, then im not so bored. HAHA.

then on the bus he asked me some sensitive questions. and asked if eelin told me about them. then i realised that i knew the thing he was toking abt. i thought oni the few of us knew. i didnt know he knows that. and he said im sugar's new best friend? dont think so. i think moss is still closer to her. and i dont come between ppl, or do i? T_T lol.

im off to study chi! see u guys ltr.



3/1/08
「 What's behind my shadow. 3/01/2008 01:20:00 PM 」

So i was playing wif the aeroplane yesterday night! quite fun lah!!! nice~! thanks uncle daniel. <33 =X Then slept at 11pm or so. Then woke up 3am in the morning thinking it was time for sch. cos i going for the make up lesson. then i sit on the bed and stone, then thought wad time it wqas, looked at the clock, realised it was 3am, and went back to sleep.

Then ltr 6am, mummy woke me up. then bathed. then went to singpost to meet up wif moss and gang. then i realised they all overslept. and eelin was the first one there. i was second. they so tired meh?! they nvr go sports day so tired one ah?! and i realised that eelin woke up too early too.

the two who were supposed to be tired, and who were, woke up too early. those who are not supposed to be tired, overslept. atrocious. then we ate and went to sch, and they walked so slowly eelin and i went ahead. then it started to drizzle. why always things happen the wrong way round?! we tired walk fast, they so slow!

then as we were reaching it rained quite heavily. we ran in, the rest were behind. idiots. lol. then we went into class. then ms chia went off to 2rp for a while? then eelin and i slept through out the whole time she was gone. then she came bak. we still slping, she woke us... then finished class.

then i went home together wif cheow and rd. then... bought lunch, ate lunch. then finished lunch, stood up and accidentally touched the table leg, and it dropped! i'm innocent okay. the whoel table almost drop, luckily i have fast reflexes. i caught it. SCARY!!! then, got smth to hold it up. i so power meh? touch oni drop -.- i wonder...

i go do my things lerh. haha.