Behind my shadow, there's always something else

3/9/08

And you know, I think I'm too matured. I'm seriously thinking too much into evrything. Like, for example ah. Qian, eelin, and even laura. I'm thinking too much! Lyk, wth. It's troubling me by thinking so much into everything. crap it. someone help me stop thinking. this way i can never be able to concentrate on other things.

it's lyk, i can even feel it when someone is sad, but i cant do anything, lest someone sayd im busybody. T_T wad to do... lyk when eelin cry, i feel it. qian cry, i feel it too. even when one doesnt cry, i know when the person wants to cry, and at the exact time, she cries.

its lyk, im getting too observant! when their eyes well up, i wanna go forward and give a pat. but that will be lyk, so rdm. and lyk, when i know that someone is sensitive to something, and when it jus lyk appears to that person, i will keep observing the person's eyes. empathy is what they call that? i guess so.

im putting myself in everyone's shoes...

btw btw. 我不是你的出气桶。在你眼里，我到底是什么。废物？道具？用完了就丢弃在一旁？直到需要的时候，在找出来使用吗？请放一点尊重和自尊给我。

we are drifting further and further apart. or am i thinking too much again? no, i dont think so. recently when i smile, i dont think its a genuine smile. it has always been a fake.

For so many years, 14 years, it feels as if there has always been a mask on my face, i have never shown anyone what i actually am. i always smile. but that is not the case. its not what i feel at all.

Labels: Dignity and Respect along with a mask on my face.