Behind my shadow, there's always something else

7/31/08

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I’ve kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they’ve played

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would

Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never bee a past

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change

It’s easier to run replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Love this song.
A secret I’ve kept locked away
No one can ever see
:D A secret. Do you have any secrets that nobody else knows of?
You can tell me, I don't mind! I'm currently collecting secrets!

Dear Diary,
In this materialistic world,
Would running away be the best solution to everything?
Maybe not, but it's certainly the best way out of situations.
Especially difficult ones.
Ah, today I was quite happy.
After all I got 28/30 for NAPFA.
Something I had done for the first time.

I wanna say a big THANK YOU to Kimberly and her mum,
For driving me to school every morning,
So I need not wake up early and rush int he morning.
Thank you very much.

Today you asked me to smile.
Today you told me not to think about such things.
Yesterday you comforted me, although you didn't say anything.

Thank you Diary,
Thank you for letting me write on you.

OOH. I think I'm getting happier day by day. :)
Which is GOOD.
The I wouldn't think about so much stuff.
Then the brain cells wouldn't die.
OH! Means maybe I'll be better academically!
Maybe Momma will be happier then!

I thought of something nice! But I go and chat on msn and forgot what i wanted to type. Tsk! Aiya. Later remember le then edit. xD