Behind my shadow, there's always something else: August 2008

8/31/08

While I was talking to Chilli, goodness.
There's this girl from poly called in to some station.
So it went:
DJ: What is the remainder of 23 divided by 7?
Girl: 9!

GOODNESS.

The next one was:
DJ: What is a bad conductor of electricity, brass, wood or water?
Girl: Water la!

MY GOD.

Under the request of Blossom, but I have long thought of this. It's not for Blossom.

I thought keeping that mask on was tough,
I thought I could take it off in your presence,
I thought you knew how tough it was,
I thought you would understand.

I had to keep it on,
Even in front of you,
How wrong I was,
How wrong I was.

Trust nobody, open up to nobody, no more.

It just had to be my fault, didn't it.

8/29/08

Tears will never conquer my face again.
Just a mere ten minutes,
Just give me ten minutes,
And I promise not to fail you.

Even though I have failed you for many times,
It will be different this time,
Mark my words.
Trust me.

Yet I do not trust myself.

8/27/08

People I have never seen, but they look the same, yet they have different personalities, totoally different personalitites. Falling into a new depth, a new depth of darkness. Darkness where nobody else has ever seen, darkness where nobody else has ever felt.

The beam of light, right at the end of this darkness. Attempts to climb out of the darkness, yet slipping and falling to greather depths. The exit is within your sight, yet beyond your reach. Ateempts to reach the exit has failed again and again.

The depth and darkness of life.

8/22/08

You Are Fencing

You're competitive but not brutally so. You compete to make yourself better.
You find having an opponent to be challenging and rewarding.
You are fierce when you're in a competition, but you don't wish your rivals any real harm.

What Olympic Sport Are You?

Haha, so cool. Fencing. *poke*

What Your Workspace Says About You

You are not organized in the least. Everything in your life pretty much survives of chaos.

You tend to work at your own pace. If this means things don't

You enjoy your job and don't feel guilty about how much time you spend working. You have a good balance between work and your personal life.

You are still trying to figure out your ideal career. You could quit your current job on any given day.

At work, you are an introvert. You don't like people coming around your work space.

What Does Your Work Space Say About You?

Quite true.

What Your Playing Cards Tell About Your Future

Right now is a time of warning and caution for you.

Your emotions are currently tied to an influential man in your life. Someone who has the power to change your life for the better.

A close friend who you've lost contact is ready to reconnect with you. And this new relationship is likely to be romantic in nature.

The near future will bring you major disputes and arguments. Things could end in a lawsuit, a separation, or divorce.

Beware of some very bad news. This may mean the loss of someone close - or the loss of a close relationship.

The Playing Card Test

lol. I know what this means!

Your Psyche is Violet

You are spiritual, intuitive, and serene.
People trust you to rescue them from bad situations, and you usually come through.
While you are quite enlightened, you find that your path is very lonely.

When you are too violet: you can't connect to ordinary life or ordinary people

When you don't have enough violet: you lack wisdom and can't learn from the past

What Color Is Your Psyche?

Haha. Quite true I guess.

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems.

These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day.

Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities.

Your dreams indicate that you have very conflicted feelings.

You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

Yeah, creative mind! Hide the dreams. ):

You are Barefoot!

You're a total free spirit, go with the flow girl
You can't be restricted by shoes for very long
And unsuprisingly, the same goes for men
Your match is out there - and he's as carefree as you are

What Kind Of Women's Shoe Are You?

So cool, barefoot. Let's all walk around barefooted!

You Are Flip Flops

You are laid back and very friendly.
Cheery and sunny in disposition, you usually have something to smile about.

Style is important to you, as long as you can stay casual.
It takes a lot to get you to dress up!

You are a loyal and true person, though you can be a quite bit of a fake.
You tend to "play hooky" and blow off responsibilities a lot more than most people.

You should live: By the beach

You should work: At a casual up and coming company

What Kind of Shoe Are You?

Quite a bit of a fake, lol.

8/21/08

A failure who doesn't do things well at all.
A failure who doesn't care for others.
A failure who doesn't know what is happening in the world.
A failure is me.

8/20/08

I was filled with so much desperation I was clutching on to life, clutching on so dearly, just so not to lose my sanity.
Filled with so much desperation that I doubted I was even alive.

Labels: Desperation

8/16/08

WHY AM I BLOGGING AT 1.39AM?!

But nvm, Duckie Duckie Duckie, I keep thinking,

ABOUT THE LIT PRESENTATION, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Ok, I shall be nice and not laugh at her or anyone else anymore.

I was supposed to speak gently and softly to waiting today, but obviously we felt it was weird and went laughing away like some crazy idiots who have never laughed before. waiting always has funny stories. HAHA. i forgot most of them but, i still think they're funny.

Waiting is weird i tell you. She can practically laugh over something NOT funny. But who doesnt know shes not weird.

-.-

wait.

why am i talking about waiting all of a sudden?

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xD Had this nice long chat with duckie. I just love duckie ( as a good friend of course. There is no lesbian gene of any sort in me, the white blood cells would have recognised and killed them as foreign particles which would harm the body, together with the mind and the heart ) wow. such a long bracket.

I wish I could be humourous alone. And entertain myself with my posts. -.-

Too bad I can't. Inspiration is what I need. Talk about inspirations. Inspirations come in any form, from anyone, from anywhere. Inspirations can be sparked off by a chain of thoughts, can be sparked off when you see something, someone. It can even be sparked off when you are dreaming. Talk about dreaming. Dreaming is a torture, it shows that your brain is probably hyperactive or that you are not even resting well.

Ignore the dream part. It's a fact. So? Ignore it since it's a factual fact.

It's also a fact that I'm just cheating you. But I did read it from a book somewhere. (:

8/14/08

Finally,
Today is the day of Nothingness.
Today is the day of Meaningless.
Today is the day of Madness.

Today is the day.

8/11/08

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well, maybe I shouldn't have told you anything at all.

8/9/08

Sometimes I wonder...

8/2/08

Just read Jessica's post, and felt that it's true. So true.
She said ''True friends listen to what you don't say.''
A true friend is someone who knows there's something wrong even when you have the biggest smile on your face.
Just how many people in your life actually does that?

In my life, one has managed to do so. So it counts as a big blessing already. This one true friend can even tell I'm unhappy even over the internet. It's like you have over a hundred or two contcts yet only one or maybe two knows you're unhappy. How many in that contact list of yours asks if you're happy or not even when you're offline, hoping you'll read their message when you come online?

Pathetic.

Just one. And only one.

Eceryone in your life will think you're happy when you smile. I wonder, really wonder if only that one special who knows you're unhappy when you smile will be there for you for the rest of your life.

Now, give me big smile. Now, are you relly happy if you did smile?

I hope you are.